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Ohiya
so
YAAAAAAY I MOVED!!! (couple weks ago)
place is much smaller to what im used to since its an apartment, but its quaint
best thing though, its right next to my school and has its own gym. Lots o young people as my neighbors as well so thats cool
somewere along the way of hooking up everything in the place, my Ps2 went kuput, so theres that.
and also guess wat
I WENT TO ANIMATE MIAMI AND GOT LOADS O STUFF!!!
Hopefully i can post some pictures of the trip here if i get around to it
I got like 5 shirts 3 jackets 6 posters a plushie a backpack 3 buttons 2 keychains and a manga (Azumanga daiyo)
On top o that, three days o excellence and fun, just wish i could brought someone with me. My buds didnt show up till the last day, so i was pretty much alone the other 2. But fun nontheless. There was a bunch a panels, Cosplay competitions (which i got lots of pics), video game tournements (which i had just missed), AND SO MANY VENDORS, no wonder i got alot o stuff. Now i have to try to find wall space now with the now 12 posters i own goodness.

in other news: Things that are going through my head-
Remember that thing I told you guys about, the one of me telling the thing to the person, like many many moons ago?
I still havent done it...
I feel like such a coward...
(you can stop reading now, heavy things onward)
I had the perfect opportunity to tell them as well...twice. We ended up going to my place and played video games for a bit. Then a few weeks later, we ended up talking on skype till liek 5 in the morning, playing board game online.
I felt like i was in bliss, that i had this opportunity to be able to converse with this person again, for a very long time, and just talk, with webcam, and I wanted to enjoy every moment of it.
I very well couldve told them the thing right there... but i guess im just... to afraid...
See, im scared if i tell them, thatll definatly be it, of everything. I like this almost patched up (insert relationship type here) we have going, and i dont really want to lose that.
And at the same time i know what has to be done, an that that is a risk i have to take.
What i wanted to say also had some questions to ask them so i can definatly get those questions outta my mind, and surly after all is said and done, there is a very high probability this person wont want to associate with me any more, and i wouldn't blame them.
They mean alot to me, and thats why im scared. I absolutly like the times we talk and hang out and such, though i keep waking up every day with a voice in my head that says to tell them and apologize like i said i would do.
I considered just sending a really long message to them (on account its getting a bit harder to talk to them in similar fashon to those other two times), but i feel that would be to impersonal and i may not even get a response back ever again. Though i may not get the opportunity again, or will have to wait a long while, if i send the message, ill know they at least got it right?
Im kinda stuck... big time. and dwelling on it for much longer surely isnt healthy.

i'd really appreciate any thoughts on this if anyone bothered to take the time to read this.

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  • Mood: Stuck
Ohiya
so
YAAAAAAY I MOVED!!! (couple weks ago)
place is much smaller to what im used to since its an apartment, but its quaint
best thing though, its right next to my school and has its own gym. Lots o young people as my neighbors as well so thats cool
somewere along the way of hooking up everything in the place, my Ps2 went kuput, so theres that.
and also guess wat
I WENT TO ANIMATE MIAMI AND GOT LOADS O STUFF!!!
Hopefully i can post some pictures of the trip here if i get around to it
I got like 5 shirts 3 jackets 6 posters a plushie a backpack 3 buttons 2 keychains and a manga (Azumanga daiyo)
On top o that, three days o excellence and fun, just wish i could brought someone with me. My buds didnt show up till the last day, so i was pretty much alone the other 2. But fun nontheless. There was a bunch a panels, Cosplay competitions (which i got lots of pics), video game tournements (which i had just missed), AND SO MANY VENDORS, no wonder i got alot o stuff. Now i have to try to find wall space now with the now 12 posters i own goodness.

in other news: Things that are going through my head-
Remember that thing I told you guys about, the one of me telling the thing to the person, like many many moons ago?
I still havent done it...
I feel like such a coward...
(you can stop reading now, heavy things onward)
I had the perfect opportunity to tell them as well...twice. We ended up going to my place and played video games for a bit. Then a few weeks later, we ended up talking on skype till liek 5 in the morning, playing board game online.
I felt like i was in bliss, that i had this opportunity to be able to converse with this person again, for a very long time, and just talk, with webcam, and I wanted to enjoy every moment of it.
I very well couldve told them the thing right there... but i guess im just... to afraid...
See, im scared if i tell them, thatll definatly be it, of everything. I like this almost patched up (insert relationship type here) we have going, and i dont really want to lose that.
And at the same time i know what has to be done, an that that is a risk i have to take.
What i wanted to say also had some questions to ask them so i can definatly get those questions outta my mind, and surly after all is said and done, there is a very high probability this person wont want to associate with me any more, and i wouldn't blame them.
They mean alot to me, and thats why im scared. I absolutly like the times we talk and hang out and such, though i keep waking up every day with a voice in my head that says to tell them and apologize like i said i would do.
I considered just sending a really long message to them (on account its getting a bit harder to talk to them in similar fashon to those other two times), but i feel that would be to impersonal and i may not even get a response back ever again. Though i may not get the opportunity again, or will have to wait a long while, if i send the message, ill know they at least got it right?
Im kinda stuck... big time. and dwelling on it for much longer surely isnt healthy.

i'd really appreciate any thoughts on this if anyone bothered to take the time to read this.

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